Phrecklette is gone. She is with her new foster mom and I am back to being 'young and freewheeling'.
Sunday night, I cried my eyes out. Almost literally. I cried so hard that I busted blood vessels in my eyelids. It's quite apparent that BF's family is glad that I have let Phrecklette go. They could see how much I was declining over time. And they all believed, as BF did, that the State was using me and sitting on their hands because they didn't feel they had to do anything. My FMIL said that I probably had no idea what a toll this was taking on my body. She's right.
But I may be a bit too freewheeling …I overspent this weekend and bought myself a brand new cell phone. Yes I deserve something for my birthday. I deserve something for sacrificing two years of my life. But I should have spent more judiciously. For example, I should have waited to make that purchase until after I paid my rent. Now I will have to raid savings here and in Kansas in order to do that. UGH.
But it's a very nice phone. BF is looking covetously at it. :o)
And as usual, BF caught on to what was going on with me immediately. He called me on it. It was painful. He is worried that if he marries me, that I am going to turn into the same kind of creature as his brother's wife. She overspent them into bankruptcy. I don't want to do that. I've got to stop NOW. And I am stopping…I've already stopped. Now it's too late to turn back time though. Shucks.
And I'm starting my MK business back up. I'm starting with one client and I'm going to branch out from there. She's already ordered about $100.00 of products from me. :o) I'll deliver those and collect tonight. Yay.
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